Rock Noir

I'm trying to get a noontime bike ride in (it's going to freaking SNOW next week) and avoid my trainer today so I can be outside. Plus I have a giant website I'm working on that I want to get out of my lap by the end of the day. And a book whose author is not responding, despite the fact we're at the very end of his cycle.

Oh, (disclaimer: I'm not really overweight, nor am I a teen obsessed with my weight, but I'm a big guy on a bike and, well, the bigger my body the harder it has to work to ride) and officially today I'm 7 pounds away from the weight I want to be at for cycling (thanks Dr. G for setting that goal!). 15 away from where I should be if I race, but I'm not planning on racing and I'm not sure it's genetically possible for me to get down to that weight.

You don't care. I'm not sure I even care. I'll stop talking about it. But if I see you I might show you all the cool new muscle formations in my thighs and calves. You can even watch the calves when I walk. Dread this summer when I wear shorts . . . mwhahahahaha.

Anyway, here's some Joe Henry lyrics I'm digging today. They are like an unsung soundtrack for a film noir film:

FLESH AND BLOOD

Come sit beside me,
That'll do for now
The night has come and left me
Just the light that you allow.
Come speak my name,
Fill my head with all such foolish dreams
My flesh and blood is no more real to me
Than what they seem

My love for you is burning
Like a spark along a fuse,
I feel your mark upon me now
As surely as the hand that leaves the bruise.
Life is for the living
And life comes hard for some,
While the rest of us, with flesh and blood,
Make it hard all on our own

All I ever wanted
Was the freedom to refuse,
Or something of my own to love enough
To hate to lose.
The fever in my brain is leaving
Smoke behind my eyes
When the part of me that wants to change
Fights the part of me that tries

Now, you see a golden light
Because I've turned a gold light on,
Sometimes, God knows, you've got to
Learn to shine your own.
I step out of darkness
And for a moment I'm only living by your kiss,
And just for now our flesh and blood
Is no more real than this